Time Rhapsody

This event was kind of exciting as the guest-of-honour was SM Goh Chok Tong. It's an event with much to learn. I prefer the security pattern used for this event than my previous event when PM Lee Hsien Loong was the guest-of-honour.

I was kind of disappointed that I did not get to be the VIP usher all because of some troublemaker. But I was kind of glad that I can be considered a VIP usher in the end as SM Goh exited from my door! Not bad.

I got to help with blocking of the middle pathway and guide the patrons while YuRi man the entrance. I was happy initially till a guy hit my butt. I clear the crowd efficiently when one of invited guest with a Dato status hit my butt with his hand. I was shocked. I do not know whether it was accidental or intentional. I did not scream or do anything. Deep in my mind, it was clearing the crowd and ensure that no one gets near SM Goh. Part-time security guard I guess.

My heart sanked but I continued to carry out my duty. I could not stop thinking about it. I was angry when he grabbed my arm after a while to ask me to do what I was doing then; not allowing the patrons to get near SM Goh. I felt like slapping him and give hime a piece of my mind but the crowd was overwhelming. What's done cannot be undone anyway. The thoughts were suppressed by my duty. I realised something about myself; I suppress a lot of things and I don't think I will make a noise even if I am molested. This is not supposed to be the way but I really do not know what to do. This wasn't the first time already. Going back to my position after the crowd was cleared, I was feeling really terrible. I can't really enjoy the beautiful pieces played by the orchestra, not even my favourite piece that was rarely played.

I thought I am not the old me anymore. Or rather, I am not the old me anymore, but why do I still can't do anything about this? I feel so useless.

Rhapsodies of Spring

It was the first SCO event of the year to celebrate Chinese New Year. I was predicting that the Prime Minister will turn up but I was wrong. I worked for both days and there was not any important guest of honour. A little disappointed.

It was a normal SCO event and the unpleasant sight of a guy that we all ushers dislike.

As it was too long since the event has taken place, if I am not wrong, I was not assigned to be the VIP usher. I think that there is something that is going on "underground" that I am not able to see. Hmm...